.weep.

i know she is in pain. she never fails to complain about the pain her knees are giving her after she returns from work everyday. she has visited many doctors, both from the western and chinese medical fields. she takes her medicine diligently. she exercises regularly. she wears knee guards to work to support her knee while she is standing. this helps to minimize the pain (as quoted from her) as she does not have to exert too much pressure on her knees.

it has been a long time since i last saw her cry. unfortunately, it happened tonight. she has been a strong woman. i believe that she will always be one. i am thankful for all her hard work she has done for the past 18 years of my life. i do not know how am i supposed to do to lessen her pain. she is always there for me when i am sick. she knows me inside out and knows when is the time to talk to me and when is the time to leave me alone. but right now, i am clueless on what i should do to lessen her pain. i guess it is in the Asian culture that i do not express my love for her very openly. i do not run into her arms, kiss her on her cheek and say 'i love her' everyday. however, i seriously want her to know that she has been and will always be the most important woman in my heart. she is not alone in this whole damn thing. she shall not blame herself or her fate for anymore mishaps because i am with her. i will not make her cry a single tear anymore. i shall be a good girl for today onwards. please, give me the strength to carry on.

"i will be good"